Why am I, Lord, at life’s sad close

Verse 1
Why am I, Lord, at life’s sad close
Unsav’d, unhappy, and unclean,
Abandon’d to my inbred foes,
O’erwhelm’d with wretchedness and sin,
A mystery to myself am I,
Nor can into thy counsel pry:

Verse 2
I know not what my God hath will’d,
To save, or finally depart;
The deep design is still conceal’d,
The love or anger in thy heart;
Inexplicably dark to me;
But known are all thy works to thee.

Hymnal/Album: Originally titled “These things hast thou hid in thine heart; I know that this is with thee.”—[Job] x. 13. Introduced in Charles Wesley, Short Hymns on Select Passages of the Holy Scriptures, Vol. 1 (Bristol: Farley, 1762). Published in The Poetical Works of John and Charles Wesley, Collected and Arranged by G. Osborn, Vol. 9 (London: Wesleyan-Methodist Conference Office, 1870), page 241.
Publishing: Public Domain