Conscious of all that I have done, since first I would

Verse 1
Conscious of all that I have done
Since first I woud from God depart,
I cannot bear, I cannot shun
The dire reproach of my own heart,
The stings of grief, remorse, and fear,
Presaging death and judgment near.

Verse 2
Memory severe, and secret shame
With scorpion-whips my spirit tear;
Caught in the toils of hell I am,
The pit of bottomless despair:
The knawings of that worm I feel
Which only Jesus blood can kill.

Verse 3
O that I coud in Him believe,
And find the fountain in his side!
O that I coud his blood perceive,
To this foul, faithless heart applied!
Saviour, from all my sins release,
And bid me now depart in peace.

Verse 4
Sprinkle, and make my conscience pure:
For this alone on earth I stay,
And humbly of thy favor sure
Woud hasten to shake off my clay,
With joy my hallow’d soul resign
And plunge in depths of LOVE Divine!

Hymnal/Album: Originally titled: “‘Having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience.’—Heb. 10:22. III.” This hymn appears in the 1783 manuscript “MS Scriptural Hymns.” This manuscript is part of the collection of the Methodist Archive and Research Centre in The John Rylands Library, The University of Manchester (accession number MA 1977/576, Charles Wesley Notebooks Box 3). Accessed through the website of The Center for Studies in the Wesleyan Tradition, Duke Divinity School. Published in The Poetical Works of John and Charles Wesley, Collected and Arranged by G. Osborn, Vol. 13 (London: Wesleyan-Methodist Conference Office, 1872), page 146.
Publishing: Public Domain