Since first my earthly course begun

Verse 1
Since first my earthly course begun,
I have pursued a God unknown,
Attracted from above
I have for thy salvation stay’d,
Thro’ a long life of trouble pray’d,
And languish’d for thy love.

Verse 2
Why have I not my suit obtain’d,
If with sincerity unfeign’d
I ask’d the promis’d good?
Why am I, Lord, at life’s sad close
Oppress’d with sins, o’rewhelm’d with woes
And dying in my blood?

Verse 3
The sole exception from thy grace,
The only outcast from thy face
If Thou hast pass’d me by,
I to my righteous doom submit,
And weep unpitied at thy feet,
Till at thy feet I die.

Verse 4
But O, if hope doth still remain,
And mindful of thy mortal pain
Thou thinkst on Calvary;
Thine agony and bloody sweat,
Thy cross unable to forget,
In death remember me!

Hymnal/Album: This hymn appears in the manuscript “MS Preparation for Death.” This manuscript is part of the collection of the Methodist Archive and Research Centre in The John Rylands Library, The University of Manchester (accession number MA 1977/578, Charles Wesley Notebooks Box 3). Accessed through the website of The Center for Studies in the Wesleyan Tradition, Duke Divinity School. Published in S.T. Kimbrough Jr. and Oliver A. Beckerlegge, eds., The Unpublished Poetry of Charles Wesley, vol. 3 (Nashville: Kingswood Books, 1992), page 368.
Publishing: Public Domain