Thou righteous GOD, whose Plague I bear

Verse 1
Thou righteous GOD, whose Plague I bear,
Whose Plague I from my Youth have borne,
Shut up in Temporal Despair,
Ordain’d to suffer, and to mourn;

Verse 2
If now I had forgot to grieve,
As every Penal Storm were or’e,
Forgive, the Senseless Wretch forgive,
And all my Chastisement restore.

Verse 3
Asham’d of having hop’d for Rest,
Or ask’d for Comfort here below,
Lo! I revoke the rash Request,
And sink again in desp’rate Woe.

Verse 4
Submissive to the Stroke again
I bow my faint devoted Head,
Till Thou discharge the latest Pain,
And write me free among the Dead.

Verse 5
Ah! what have I to do with Peace,
Or Converse sweet, or Social Love?
From Man, and all his Help, I cease,
From Earth, and all her Goods remove:

Verse 6
Waking out of my Dream of Hope
I see the fond Delusion end,
And give the whole Creation up,
And live, and die—without a Friend.

Hymnal/Album: This hymn appears in the manuscript “MS Deliberative Hymns.” This manuscript is part of the collection of the Methodist Archive and Research Centre in The John Rylands Library, The University of Manchester (accession number MA 1977/552, Charles Wesley Notebooks Box 1). Accessed through the website of The Center for Studies in the Wesleyan Tradition, Duke Divinity School. Published in S.T. Kimbrough Jr. and Oliver A. Beckerlegge, eds., The Unpublished Poetry of Charles Wesley, vol. 3 (Nashville: Kingswood Books, 1992), page 145.
Publishing: Public Domain